For the longest time, this insane equation was like shadows in the dark. Going around in circus to find nothing, because it was counting nothing. After a long battle against the mind & body. *warning - staring at it for too long can cause serious brain damage*
The solution was simple, too simple that it was walked over.
Back to the drawing board. It is an on-going process that is never ending. After so many years, getting back to what had started is so hard. Forever trying to improve or maybe change is such a drag. Still it is a task that has to be done. However long it must take. If only the magic fingers works.
Sometimes in life there aren't any choice. You can't choose to do the things you like or you can't enjoy what you do. Being trap in this drawing board that never ends. The challenge is to much to take. So, if this is the only option. Sticking till the end is the only way.
There will always be that one day where you wake up earlier than usual and feel fabalous about everything. This could be what they call - Getting up on the right side of bed. It didn't matter how the rest of the day went cause it was the best morning or best late morning in a very long time. Just staring out the window looking into the beautiful sky and enjoying the cool aka Cold breeze of summer was not a bore but an enjoyment. This is the best start of a New Year.