Anarchic Lady

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

I decided to break this rule just for today cause it's the new year.
It is time I let it out.

Its been years since I last talked about my life in public.
It was one lesson learnt when I got harsh beatings from b*itches and sl*ts who has no clue who I was but only knew me through my thoughts and true feelings of my life.

I was beaten down by harmful words which carried strong consequences towards people around me.
It was then I realised, never again should I be exposed to such cruel intentions.
Never again will I show my face to the world.
Never again can strangers guess who I am and pass unfair judgements.

I was a target. But today I no longer need to feel threaten.
I still came out on top and I still feel proud of myself.

If I were to reflect upon the past year.
I must admit, forgiveness is a really hard thing to do.
Let alone forget.

I'm sorry evil people.
I'm still the Queen.

=+=

In summary,

1. Centrelink saved me.
2. I found Starmaid.
3. Spend the most $$ in my entire life on someone's B'day.
4. Had a blast holiday in SG
5. Got a shocking live viewing of discovery health on stem insertion.
6. I found OnlineLearningAust.
7. Played amazing Mahjiong.
8. Made new friends.
9. Got a housemate by accident.
10. Watched the best new year fireworks display without the squeezing.

2009 was a quiet one.
Again.
no resolutions. no wishes. no disappointments.

   

For the longest time, this insane equation was like shadows in the dark.
Going around in circus to find nothing, because it was counting nothing.
After a long battle against the mind & body.
*warning - staring at it for too long can cause serious brain damage*

 The solution was simple, too simple that it was walked over.

Blinded.

Back to the drawing board.
It is an on-going process that is never ending.
After so many years, getting back to what had started is so hard.
Forever trying to improve or maybe change is such a drag.
Still it is a task that has to be done. However long it must take.
If only the magic fingers works.