Anarchic Lady

After hours of painful decisions, this xanga is finally complete. Such a simple thing that took ages to look the way it is. So simple yet so difficult. There are so many ways to present this and finally I decided this should be it.

HELLO WORLD!

Welcome to my new blog!  ♥

Say What?

Sorry I haven't been able to blog for a while.

It was too depressing to be reminded of this but i had to place it somewhere.

Mr. Q-T will forever be remembered
14 October 2004 - 7 December 2007

I'm sorry I had to let you go. Please forgive me.

Now now, don't tell me I'm wrong. I might have made a mistake. Yes, fedup and pissed off. The back to work issue didn't work out as well as I would have hoped. I'm really sick and tired of all the crap I have to put up with.

I know I stepped onto shit again. Once bitten, twice shy theory didn't work on me. Please, life is never meant to be smooth sailing. I had a choice but I choose to do it the hard way. I thought having a relaxed environment to work in was good enough for me. Nope, basically, I'm just slacking for one minute, and then working my ass off like there is no tomorrow. I hate the rush at the end, Why can't it be more consistent?

Sometimes certain assholes just like to make things difficult for others which in turn makes things difficult for me.

Fine. Just a few more days. It will be over soon.

I hate LDR.
Anyone whose been through it will know. It is a stairway to destruction of stable love.
Is it really that horrible? I see it slowly creeping up to me and what do we do? We avoid at all cost. But somethings never change, only one party will be involved in keeping it at bay by bombing all possible routes.

I'm sorry to say that one is me. Trying with all my might to proof a point, but this point is not for me to proof. I can no longer hold the fort. The walls are crumbling, no matter how tough it appears, it cannot withstand such bombardment. I failing. Being all alone in this fight, I thought there would be a partner to fight this with me. I can't remember when that person died. In the mist of all this, I'm still 2nd in command. After fighting so hard, I was never promoted. All this while I thought I was taking the lead, to my disappointment it never happen.

I will try to give it another shot, but it seems my only strength is also my only weakness. Too bad for me. I really hope this war will be over soon.

I'm hungry, whose gonna cook for me.
nobody can tell the difference between a relationship and friendship.
it is sometimes confusing and I'm being mixed into this confusion. I try to make it clear to everyone, I fail miserably again.

Should LDR end? Which way should it go? The good side or bad side? Which is which anyway? I'm still trying to figure that out. My contemplation is causing more problems for me.

I miss the Bear.
I miss the Bear's scent.
I miss the Bear's hug.
I miss the Bear's smile.

I miss partying with the Bear.
I miss hanging out with the Bear
I miss gaming with the Bear.
I miss watching a movie with the Bear.
I miss laughing with the Bear.
I miss talking to the Bear.

Mr. M.I.A is ill.